Moonlight

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Age, religion, maturity. It all plays apart in a person's being as well as the emotions. It seems as though adults know all about their children. What they do, what their feeling and even sometimes are able to know when their children needed their comfort and support. Parents, especially, play a really big role in a child's life. They have that instinct and know instantly when something is wrong. Then again, many of us teenage children, take advantage of having loving parents. Parents that care for us and try to show us the concern we need only that it comes in many different forms. Why do you think that at certain age, parents disapproves of certain things. Only when u supposedly reach the right age, it's the time when they allow you to have freedom, yet not too much to be led astray.
Is it not true, that we take advantage of that freedom that they give us? The trust? Why does it always seem that at a certain age, everyone or at least almost everyone goes thru the same things, only that there are different endings to those different relationships. Is it not true, that when being a teenager, we want all the freedom that we can get? Is it not true, that there are many atimes when we wish our parents gone and that we can control our own lives, because it's our lives and we are living them not our parents? (btw i'm not pin-pointing this at anyone, juz stating a fact)
Yet sometimes we must consider that by being a parent, it's not easy. They have to look after the household, make sure that there's enough stock in the fridge to last the family. Enough money to support their childrens' education...etc... So the least that we can do as a teenager, is to be more understanding, more intuned to the way a parent thinks and exactly why she/he thinks this way. Is it because they try to be stern and yet not too stern to the point where a child trys to rebell against them over and over again. The least a teenager could do is to follow our parents' wishes, to obey and honour their feelings and wishes. Not to rebell against them at any opportunity. I mean, how many teenagers at this age, really sits down to think about why their parents are so strict. How many actually are grateful that they have parents to stop them from going overboard when doing things? Even though when it seems unfair, no justice given, shouldn't we at least consider what went wrong. Who's fault it really is.
I mean, my best friend juz got in trouble with her mum and i want to share that burden with her, because she's not really a sort of person to do such a thing like that. I've known her since i was in kindergarden all the way till now and we're still good friends. Yet i feel that she's changed. Not just a little but a lot. I mean, no one can stay the same forever but no one can change so drastically either. I've been thru went she's going thru now, and if ur reading this my friend, I juz want u to know that i'm here, i'm always here for u to lean on. I'm even here to cry with u, to share that pain and hurt which is in u. Coz as i see u hurt now, i remember the hurt that i had which is still buried deep within me and i don't want u to go thru it alone. All i can say is that, let this be a lesson learnt and may you find peace soon. You won't forget it, but u'll learn from it and if need it be, i can give u advice. Juz try not to repeat it. God bless you.

"Over all the earth, you reign on high. Every mountain stream, every sunset sky. Lord my one request, Lord my only aim, is that you reign in me again. Lord reign in me, reign in ur power over all my dreams in my darkest hour. You are the Lord of all i am. So won't you reign in me again.
Over every thought, over every word. May my life reflect the beauty of my Lord. You mean more to me than any earthly thing. So won't u reign in me again. Lord reign in me, reign in your power. Over all my dreams in my darkest hour. You are the Lord of all i am so won't you reign in me again! So won't you reign in me again!"

- posted by Delia @ 12:08 AM

Friday, May 21, 2004

Btw this is a poem i wrote about how i felt in OBS:

Poem in OBS

All that I have was left behind
On my journey to a five-day camp
No one prepared me for what was to come
I miss my home and comfort zone

The activities were tough and challenging
The team was encouraging and spurred each other on
Not else was left to be heard,
Except the shouts of victory from our team

Now I realise the goal of this camp
I feel as though I’ve achieved it
The strength in me has grown
Not just physical but mental too

The end has come I feel saddened
Though home is waiting for my return
The lesson taught will always stay with me
The friendship has rooted deep within the group

This camp I know I will miss
Especially the physical challenges I had to face
But gladness seeps through me
For I am home within my family

And the song we sang for our instructor was this:

"I love you, you love me. We are one big family, with a great big hug and i kiss from me to you. Won't you say you love me too" :D

- posted by Delia @ 11:03 PM

It's been so long since i've updated this lovely blog which my sister has helped me create. Well a lot of things has been going on... like I've got an A1 for my A-Maths!!! My very first A1 eversince i entered secondary school!!! Oh and another thing is that i've been selected to work towards a sports award, to earn it, a few leaders have been selected and asked to plan the games and co-ordination for games day. Looking over the welfare of all the classes which is 8 classes in total. Quite tough but i'm sure i'd be able to manage, though it's not really about the award, but more on the teamwork and having to co-operate with each other.
Oh and during the lst week of March all the sec 3 students had to go to OBS (Outward Bound Singapore) and really, this 5 day camp was really a challenge for me. I encountered problems which i don't really get to face in my daily life. My group, Marshall, encountered lots of problems, but the major problem i felt which really put a damp onto each and everyone of our moods was that...we all wanted mobile, but instead we got residential. Practically the whole group was grumbling and it just didn't seem fair to us! It was only on the third day of our camp that we snapped out of our moods thanks to the instructor. He really made us see that it was a waste mourning over what we couldn't have instead of making a better use of it. I must really say that only after that, the team was really able to bond. When we were building our rafts, it really took all the effort, the co-operation and strength to get the job done and having to make sure that the ropes secured the barrels together tightly, so that when we use it out at the river it won't fall apart... Well it didn't not until the last part when we nearly made it to shore, it did come loose in the end, but it was quite a success, but it's only the beginning, at least to the team, it was only the beginning when our team were really getting down to being serious in the camp.
I tell you the next day, it really was the best encounter, best experience i've ever had in my whole life and in the camping trip. Four grps went for the sea expedition, the route was to go round the whole of Pulau Ubin or at least the island which we were on. The four grps had four leaders being incharge of us making sure that no one gets left behind while kayaking and things like that. So basically half the day it was great, even the weather was holding up...until after lunch. The weather really took a drastic turn, being on a single kayak, that really gave me an advantage and of course thanks to my wonderful and loving sister ;) she taught me how to kayak before the camp and i didn't think it would benefit me but obviously i was wrong ;) So yeah halfway reaching our destination for the day, it started raining heavily. We all panicked not just because of the rain and thunder, but because the instructors who were with us weren't insight and the 4 leaders too panick, until orders were shouted, instructing us to row to shore as it was quite near (lucky for us). I was really frightened partly because i was scared that if the rain entered the cockpit, the kayak would sink and thunder was so close lightning could even be seen a distance away!!! That was not the end. When we reached shore, everyone being frantic to get out of the kayak, stepped onto the sand wanting to run to the bank where everyone would be safer. When i got out of the kayak, i started to sink, it was as though something was in the sand dragging me down and really thinking it was quicksand or something i just fought through, i didn't really take notice to anything else except being busy fighting my way through the 'quicksand' and eventually i got out. My friends and i were praying for safety and that everything will be all right. When this whole event finished we went to our campsite having to pitch up our bashas, which is something like a tent but it's not...so yeah.
At night my grp, Marshall, we played some really stupid games and we sang a song to our instructor, coz the next day we were all leaving for home and i knew that in my heart, i'd miss OBS and if i have another opportunity to got to OBS again i'd gladly go for it, be it 5 days, 9 days or even 21 days!!!!! That's how much i love OBS and how much i miss it! (Other than the dirtiness coz i didn't get to bathe for at least 2 days) I was really happy...(sorry that's really a mild term to express my happiness) EXHILARATED to be home and i've never missed my family this much, especially talking to my sister! But i brought home a very important lesson which i learned from the 5 day OBS it was that no matter what kind of obstacle is placed infront of me, i always have teachers, friends and family to lean onto for support and encouragement. OBS really has opened my eyes to other kinds of experiences and to always, always expect the unexpected. To always expect problems in life but one thing is to never give up but fight all the way. Fight with every breath and strength that i have within me and not to let my fellow friends, family, teachers down!

- posted by Delia @ 10:13 PM